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I’ve always said that what he tells his friends about me is his business - after all, they’re HIS friends.
But when he’s talking to our MUTUAL friends, you would think he’s try NOT to lie.
WOW. It’s funny how you rave about how classy a person is, and turns out to be wrong.
I suppose when people hurt, it’s human nature to hurt back. I did it plenty in Grade 12… ;)
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I truly appreciated everyone that had kept me busy the past few days.
I love you all, there are no words.
*hugs*
I got up after 2+ hours of tossing and turning and finally gave up on trying to sleep. I called in sick for today because nobody should be trusted with a sharp needle with less than 3 hours of sleep.
YOU BEGGED. AND I GAVE IN.
And just when I’ve convinced myself that yes, I could be friends with you. I even like you better now that you’re not always trying to be the perfect boyfriend and on your best behavior. I was even beginning to have fun around you again.
All of a sudden you changed your mind. All of a sudden you decided that “the best times I had with you were when we were together and I didn’t want new memories the way we are now.”
SERIOUSLY. Make up your damn mind and stop screwing with me.
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I got up finally and put everything away. The 4 page letter you wrote me last week, the left over AquaBus ticket that I had been saving for us, the stubs of the last 2 movies we saw together, the card that I bought you a long time ago but never remembered to write…
Operation Cactus is still sitting on my window. And I can’t look at it.
I need hugs, and alcohol. And perhaps a Kleenex.
To prove that I am actually studying and not randomly browsing the internet… here’s a quote from my Social Psych lecture on Stereotyping/Prejudice/Discrimination that made me giggle:
Heaven is a place where you have an American house, a German car, French food, British police, an Italian lover, and everything is run by the Swiss.
Hell is a place where you have a Japanese house, a French car, British food, German police, a Swiss lover, and everything is run by the Italians.
[edit]* More giggles: UBC just emailed me regarding a new course they’re offering this Fall - BIOL448 “The History of Fisheries”
Yes I would LOVE to take that course.
Bahh. I’m easily distracted/entertained when I’m studying…
I’m going through a phase… | Comments Off
…Where I think my guy friends are complete unreliable jerks.
It’s true. I have not been so disappointed in a long time.
WOW.
It’s finally over.
And I’m almost relieved.
It’s been a rough few days. We talked and cried and wondered why we don’t giggle at each other anymore, why it’s becoming increasingly stressful to be around each other… despite the fact that we’re still in love.
We’re just at different parts of our lives. I’m still too young to give him the amount of commitment he needs and definitely deserves.
Priorities.
He still wants to give me everything, I’m just not ready to do the same thing back.
Stepping back, hopefully we can both stop trying so hard and let life take over. He’ll chill out and I’ll grow up. Hopefully.
What’s meant to be, will be.
We both know what tomorrow will bring. We’re going to sit down and “talk”, but we both know how it’s going to end…
Yet he called just now. And while I didn’t have the courage to answer the phone, he left a message, wanting to say goodnight to me one last time.
Like he has done for the past year, every night, without missing a day.
I can’t bring myself to deleting that message, I think I’ve probably heard it 6 times now. And it breaks my heart a little bit more every time I hear it…
This is going to hurt - a lot.
